Mum

The thought of Mum hit me

Out of the blue;

I was jogging on Bowen, preoccupied with something else, while having Podcast on

A favourite cultural critic was trashing a one-time bestseller;

About positive thinking with a funny title

She presented to me many years ago, as a sort of gift;

“What a silly book,” then I said

Sent it away to whom I can’t remember;

Now

My heart has grown more capacious and tender

But Mum is gone.

The Guest House

On second reading this Rumi item feels a tad too heavy in rendering, not up to “the lightest touch” notch David Whyte once identified in good poetry. But it made me pay a revisit, so that’s something.

The Guest House

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival. 

A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes 
As an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing and invite them in. 

Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond. 

  

Reader of His Own Self

Proust says, in reality, every reader is, while he is reading , the reader of his own self. The writer’s work is merely  kind of optical instrument which he offers to the reader to enable him to discern what, without this book, he would perhaps never have experienced in himself. And the recognition by the reader in his own self of what the book says is the proof its veracity.

The experiences of fictional characters afford us a hugely expanded picture of human behavior, and thereby a confirmation of the essential normality of thoughts or feelings unmentioned in our immediate environment. Yeah. Reading fictions makes us feel less lonely.

Alain de Botton: “An effect of reading a book which has devoted attention to noticing such faint yet vital tremors is that once we’ve put the volume down and resumed our own life, we may attend to precisely the things the author would have responded to had he or she been in our company. Our mind will be like a radar newly attuned to pick up certain objects floating through continuousness; the effect will be like bringing a radio into a room that we had thought silent, and realizing that the silence only existed at a particular frequency and that all along we in fact shared the room with waves of sound coming in from a Ukrainian station or the nighttime chatter of a minicab firm. Our attention will be drawn to the shades of the sky, to the changebility of a face, to the hypocrisy of a friend, or to a submerged sadness about a situation which we had previously not even known as we could feel sad about. The book will have sensitized us, stimulated our dormant antennae by evidence of its own developed sensitivity.”

Love Me, Love Me Not

“I doubt if de Botton has written a dull sentence in his life” — a comment from the New Statesman which I could not concur more.

Just finished “Essays in Love” — a plain title but the content is anything but. Misery needs company and am not alone! Not alone in feeling sillily euphoric, pathetically obsessed, loving and resentful in equal measure, and in the end can only sadly sigh over the greatest riddle of life.

Another beautiful end-of-Summer day today. So divine that it hurts.

Ordered half a case of wines from Z’s friend in Lama. One stone two birds.